Has been a black day for my country..my India...and its people!!
That's why I'm all black today..
So many innocent lives lost to revenge!!
Then why did U not stop it....How could you let it happen?
Did the tears not move you..Are you not there for the innocent!!
Sometimes GOD..I look around for you and you choose to take your vacation just then!!
When is it right to fight back?
When is the ok to be brutal?
The terrorists,they are human too!!!
God knows why they had the anger maybe,maybe misery,maybe a loss of will to live...A thousand maybe's...!!
They were all young.Could have reached somewhere..might have...now we'ld never know!!
The purpose of their life was to destroy so many lives in the name of an ideology...perhaps!!!
Do we not care!!
Tommorow,life will be normal again...We will pay homage to this blackout each year..sometimes
shut it out of our minds..so that our fairytale is not blurred!
I always shut the dark outside the door of my life,so that it does not bury me!!
We all have so much to say!!
But does someone want to really listen...
When is it right to hit back??


Growing up,all the early years of my life,I always had a question... GOD..why me? GOD..r u even listening?? GOD..why the pain,misery and suffering? The more I asked,the more restless I became..I found no answer, just an an all pervading silence... This silence haunted me... Was my intention falsifiable? Why did HE not approve? Was HE even just? I began to discover my strengths and uncover the innumerable weaknesses, all so glaring. Many a times,I felt helplessly weak. At a rare few,I felt, almost heroic. I often asked myself..Who was this GOD?..Did he even exist??..Why did I trust him ever so much???..Could he make all come right for me???? How could, I trust so blindly? Maybe he had too many to care for,maybe for him ,I was just a face in the pan,or even,perhaps, he just did not care!! Was possible!!Anything was possible with GOD!!! Being fat through preschool,high school and college..always being renounced..was never good. Many a time I prayed for help,and after every such prayer my situation got worse. People mocked,often laughed,was never fun being scorned... GOD,try living a moment of this,and then get back to me!! Yet,I strangely never drowned.Each time the weight of society began to overwhelm me,burden me with its expectation and I began to loose my voice,some strange force pushed me up. Some odd quirk of character.Some strength I did not know even existed. For a long time,I did not see this ..remained unaware to this pattern. And then I saw it...all so very clearly! I paged through all my dreams,some dreams which I thought, were dreams,which, when fulfilled became nightmares. One such,was being popular.I worked hard at being funny and pleasing everyone.I was for a while, surrounded by friends(people..),but what the heck..I soon found the noise of opinions overwhelming me,I found a strange uneasiness,a worry of loosing the love of people who did not even perhaps care for themselves...I found loosing out on respect for myself..in the struggle to win the respect of society...!! Did I ever "THIS"... a dream? The more I thought the more clear it all. The happiest moments of my life were the ones which came to me unasked for... None of it was my plan,none I dreamt. My strengths gave me courage,told me that I could achieve,my weaknesses gave me compassion. My success was meaningless,the failures were precious,for they taught me to persevere,fight ,be humble..humility is such an important virtue. The more I asked,the more meaningless the end result became. The end was just a completion.The joy was in the journey. Did I even have to "ASK"? For GOD knew it all..he knew what was right for me,and what was rightfully mine. When the time came he would give me what was mine. He would work it out just right for me. When I would look backwards the dots would connect,somehow,somewhere... The pattern would form. I merely had to live the dream called LIFE,the today..and leave GOD to take care of the rest... I merely had to shut out the negatavity and embrace the faith... GOD n me...now that's what I the MIDAS touch...!! Phew..I had uncovered pure gold!! A force which did ALL RIGHT and NO WRONG! Was for no reason that HE was called GOD!!!